Lost: thousands of brain cells - last seen about 11 years ago

For those of you still interested in my blog I’m sorry that I’ve been a very bad blogger for the past several months. I’m trying to get back on it but I can’t make any promises since I’ve had to cut down to only two days of childcare a week.  I long for September when she starts grade one and I get five blessed days a week to work for free.  That being said, it will be sad when she doesn’t get to spend all this time with her beloved babysitter every week. 

So why have I been MIA? I’ve been taking a break from work for the last months or so. Before that I was starting to unravel a little, all of those old demons cropping up and whispering in my ear again.  It’s incredibly humbling for me to realize just how messed up my brain chemistry is. I increased my dose – back to pre-weaning levels – and took some time to focus on my kid and Holiday preparations.  Now, a month later, I feel like myself again. Things have shifted back into perspective and I feel like maybe I can focus on work again.

As I think about my work and what I want to accomplish I sometimes feel like the ideas and inspiration are tumbling down on my like a waterfall but all I have is a teacup to catch them and make them happen.  I now have two 6 hour days a week in which to work on writing my booklet/paper/whatever-the-hell-I-decide-it-is-when-it’s-done, develop a presentation based on said thingamabob, create a group coaching program, find a way to fill that program, keep up with both of my blogs, keep up with Twitter, possibly create and promote an online hub for queer and gender neutral parenting…..zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sorry, did I pass out on the keyboard there?

Also, if anyone has found my mental focus, please give it back. I think I may have left it in on the second floor of the University Centre in Guelph in 2001.

And this is how I spent my holidays